After my last post, I thought I would get a bit more honest about how hard it is to deal with spare time effectively at University, for me anyway. I’ve tried writing this post a few times but I’ve not been able to put how I feel about it into words.
If you get lost in my ramblings along the way, my main point is: the amount of spare time I have at University is not good for my mental health and motivation.
In my third year at University, I have 6 hours of teaching spread across three days. Tuesdays and Wednesdays I have off, meaning from 11am Monday until 9am Thursday, I’m not doing anything. I also barely go to my lectures anyway so that makes it even worse. I feel like I’m unemployed with no real purpose.
I have friends, hobbies, a business and I keep up with all my deadlines. So why do I still feel like I’m doing nothing and my days blur together? I rarely know what day of the week it is and it’s not unusual for me not to leave the house all day.
I think what makes things like this worse is that there is an expectation at University to always be doing something fun, whether that be chilling with friends at home, going to the pub and so on. I could be enjoying a chilled evening, and then question why I’m not with a huge group of my friends at the pub? It could get to 6pm and I’ve not seen anyone that day. That’s not what I expected from my time at uni.
For me, I’ve always been productive and not really happy unless I had plans or was doing something fun. Even if I go to the gym and do 1000 words of my assignments, I won’t feel as accomplished with my day had I been to work 9-5.
I am someone that loves a routine. I like to wake up at the same time each day, go to a certain place and do a certain thing, or at least know that I’ve got something to wake up for. My days off can make me feel quite low, I’ll laze around in bed for ages and then play on my Xbox or just sit on my phone. Whereas if I had uni every day, I would be more motivated for things and feel like I’ve got something to be doing.
This post has probably ended up more negative than I would have hoped but I can’t write about something that has such an impact on me and not have any negative emotion come across. The simple answer is to probably do more with my day, but I’m not sure what more is.
As much as I hope no one else feels like this, if this post can resonate with one person or let them know it isn’t just them then that’s great – maybe we should join forces on our missions to do more.
See you on the next post,